~ I like when people sparkle at me

~After 10 hours of driving, when I point my foot, it pops all over.

~I speed a lot… I should prolly work on that

~Driving in Minneapolis makes me nervous, even riding there makes me nervous

~When I get nervous people just throw m&m’s in my mouth and tell me to chill…. and it works. who’d have thunk it…. pam.

~comparing swollen feet will never appeal to me

~the day Jesse and I died, was extremely hilarious. Bad Harool

~I learned that H.E. ooll is not a good place to go.

~I found my dorm room, and it’s bigger than most, but it will still be a huge adjustment for me

~so few bathrooms/ showers, and they’re all so dirty. 3 showers just does not seem like enough for a bunch of girls.

~I didn’t get my chapel fix, and that was sad, but one more reason to look forward to August

~I fell even more in love with NCU

~I saw the transfer lady I email with…. it was like seeing a celebrity… dont’ ask.

~I found out that I don’t have to freak out about the huge debt college will be

~I learned that it’s impossible for me to be more terrified thinking about leaving in August, but at the same time it’s impossible for me to be more ready or excited about it

~ On top of that i’m so excited about my classes and meeting new people. I’m gonna learn about stuff I wanna learn about. finally. i’ve been waiting a long time to take classes I want to take and am excited that it’s finally here. With the exception of English of course.

~NCU is gonna be great. i’m gonna learn, grow, and many other things and I am so excited.

~ so there you have it folks. some highlights from the trip. I hope you enjoyed it. I’m sure you felt just like you were there…. okay prolly not. but maybe a little.

~ i’m gonna go try and be productive now.

~ oops, i’m still using the little things (~) in the side

~I dont’ really feel like going through and changing it though.

~okay, goodbye my lovelies.

~<333  <—- look! it’s like a heart balloon. or, wait… yep, it’s a heart balloon.

   Time is gonna take my mind
and carry it far away where I can fly
The depth of life will dim my temptation to live for you
If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears
’cause it’s all about love and I know better
How life is a waving feather

So I put my arms around you around you
And I know that I’ll be leaving soon

My eyes are on you they’re on you
And you see that I can’t stop shaking
No, I won’t step back but I’ll look down to hide from your eyes
’cause what I feel is so sweet and I’m scared that even my own breath
Oh could burst it if it were a bubble
And I’d better dream if I have to struggle

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
And I hope that you won’t hurt me

I’m dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music’s the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
And I hope that you won’t hurt me
So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they’re on you
And I hope that you won’t hurt me

You know when it comes down to it, all I really want is to make a difference. I want to show people how much they really matter. I want them to know how special they are and I want to show them love, the way it’s really supposed to be. I want to give hope, I want to reflect my savior and how he sees people and how he feels about them.

But I have to admit that at the end of the day, I look back and I feel like I just can’t seem to get it right.

I’m a mess. I never have the right words, or the timing is off.

 I wanna display hope, but I drown in my own fears and insecurities.

I wanna be selfless, but I continally see how selfish I am.

I wanna show love and peace, but I look in myself and see such anger and confusion.

I wanna show people how much they matter and how special they are, but I can’t find it in me to believe or feel those things for myself.

It just gets really frustrating when my heart wants so badly to help people, but I feel like I continually fall short in so many ways.

 Oy Vey…

YES!

It has been done!

I made pancakes, and they were awesome!

All soft and yummy and cooked thoroughly, and they even had a normal thickness. 

*sigh* I really think i’m growing as a person. Ka-chow!

<333

So, I have found a small group of people willing to paint ball war it out. Or something like that, lol.

Now I have to find a day. We’ll see how this all ends up turning out.

Hopefully, all goes well.

I’m so excited!

So here’s the deal.

My dada has gotten two paint ball guns in the pawn shop and  brought them home.

He is trying to get a hold of some paint balls for me.

I want to be shot with a paint ball. Now before anyone jumps up, believe me when I say that I have received plenty of offers for this job. However, the person has to be willing to get shot back.

I’m not expecting a huge response to this or anything. Getting hit with a paint ball, will hurt. There will be pain and bruising and soreness.

Don’t ask me why I wanna be shot with a paint ball gun, but it’s on my list of life goals. I know it’s crazy and twisted or whatever, but hey i’m me and so this kinda crap comes with the package.

I have no doubt that I will be able to find someone to do this with me. But as of right now i’m still looking.

So…. any takers?

<333

and trust me when I say that it felt just as dirty as it sounds.

I’m finally posting about the concert, I know how you have all been in suspense and waiting for this moment to come…. okay, maybe not so much.

The Tooth and Nail concert Sarah and I went to was Thursday night, in Indy. My ticket didn’t come in the mail. So in typical tiffany fashion, I spazzed a little bit, but can you really blame me though??? WAIT! on second thought, dont’ answer that.

On the way to the concert Sarah and I stopped at Walmart and got our graduating friends their cards. Card picking is hard. We finally made our selections though and headed off to the concert.

We got there early and got good spots and yes, we were able to get another ticket, so we both could enter. So much worry for nothing. We both bought buttons from the different bands, it was quite thrilling.

Then we got our very good spots decently close to the stage. Sullivan was up first. WOW. that pretty much sums it up. The lead singer was… unique. He dumped tons of water on himself and threw water on the crowd and danced very sensually, also with the mic stand. I felt dirty watching it. Then he talked to the crowd. “We got ourselves some good looking Hunny’s in the crowd tonight.” “Every guy grab a hunny before the nights over.” This continued for a few minutes as Sarah and I exchanged very odd looks and waited for him to be done. It was… weird. He also talked about getting wet quite a few more times.

Then there was a hole in the crotch of his pants, which I wouldn’t have minded if he had not been moving in a way to display the hole to the world. You couldn’t see… uh… anything… but still.

Throughout their set he continued throwing water on himself and dancing… freely.

Next came The Fold and then This Classic Crime. I enjoyed both very much and highly recommend them. The were also fun to watch.

Next came Hawk Nelson, which is just amazing. Love Hawk Nelson! Although moshing started, which I would not have minded had it not been right in front of Sarah and I. I got stepped on, and pushed, and elbowed like crazy. A couple of times groups of people came up behind me barreling through and pulling me into the moshing, each time though Sarah faithfully pulled me out as quickly as possible. Thank You!

After a while of the moshing it got very old. Then something amazing happened! Sarah turned to me and said, “Tiff, push them back.”

I stood there for a moment contemplating this… hmmm… could I? should I? Dare I? Then I got pushed again and quickly smiled and said to myself… “I DARE!”

So I stood there with my arms outstretched, and when people came barreling my way I stood my ground and gave them what they really wanted, a good push right back into the middle, and I must say, it felt good.

After Hawk Nelson, came MXPX. Sarah and I found safer spots for them. I actually enjoyed them a lot. Most of there songs were requests and they really seemed to be into what the fans were saying. It was refreshing.

That pretty much sums up the concert. It was exciting, the bands were amazing, although some were… different. All in all, I had an excellent time.

I’m glad we went.

In other news there is once again talk of a Bible Study. I like Bible Studies, so I am obviously pro the idea. So it is up to everyone else. Just let me know.

After graduation Jesse, sarah, and I went to Steak and Shake for diner and it was good. Then we went to Walmart. It was very entertaining. Jesse found a big smiley face ball to carry around, guard, sit on, and bounce against people with. I found a light saber, and Sarah found a noodle to wave in the air. I found the whole thing very hilarious.

Today I spent the day with Jesse in Fort Wayne. I really enjoyed myself. I didn’t buy anything, but it was very funny. I tried talking Jesse into getting me a drink refill, and people let me tell you now, nothing and I mean nothing can get Jesse to get your drink refilled unless he feels like it. Trust me… I tried everything, and nothing worked. It was very sad, but also very amusing. lol.

Jesse and I also talked about buying dvds online, HE (Heaven-Earth), politics (kinda), among various other topics and poor Jesse felt his intelligence draining, and I just sat back laughing and wondering how the whole conversation started.

It was a good time, Oh! and Jesse has buttons! in his car! they change the speed! this is new to me and extremely exciting! I pushed them, but only a few times because then he went all button protector on me. Don’t ask me why. I dont’ understand it myself. I don’t have buttons and he won’t let me use his… What is that all about?

I seriously need to find these buttons. I wonder if my car has them hidden somewhere. A girl can dream I suppose.

Well, that’s all I have guys. I’s been a busy but very exciting weekend. I got to spend it with the people I love the most and just have a lot of fun. I couldn’t ask for more.

I’m going to go catch some sleep now. Goodnight my loves.

<333

P.S. I saw Pirates 3, and I really enjoyed it. *sigh* good movie.

I love you all.

I was going to post about the concert last night, but decided to hold off on that and honor our graduates.

To the class of 07 congrats!

To Jesse, you’re gonna be amazing Period. I wish you all the happiness. I feel honored to be your friend, and I am a better person because of it. You are the best person i’ve ever known. I love you.

I wanted to find a song in honor of the occasion, and go figure I settled on this one.

“Graduation (Friends Forever)”

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn’t know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we’d get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] – As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won’t interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it’s like we’re women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us ’round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]