Once again, i’m left without answers and just not understanding.
For now i’m sad. I think about the times I spent with him, even if they were few. I think about the sadness that surrounds many people today because of his passing. Tears are being shed, old photos dug out and looked at, memories brought to the surface and talked about.
Now though, his life is just over. and for a while, it will be sad and people will remember. I will remember. But even in this moment I know, that soon I will forget. His name will fall from lips less frequently, and then not very often at all.
A whole life, and most will forget, and many will never know.
This just doesn’t seem right to me. It doesn’t seem fair. At the end of the day i’m not going to try to sound like I will ‘keep the memory alive’ or something. and i’m sure there are some that, while it wont’ be as often, will still remember.
It’s just that a whole life was lived and is now gone, and will eventually be forgotten. People die all the time, they are just gone, and then soon forgotten.
I don’t understand this. and it frustrates me.
I try to understand, try to make sense of it all. But I can’t.
He’s just gone, and the world will go on without him, just like it does with every other person.
But for now I will remember
The Weepies: The World Spins Madly On
Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you’d gone
and let the world spin madly on
Everything that I said I’d do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on
I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I’m standing still
Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on
I thought of you and where you’d gone
And the world spins madly on.
YAY!