I think what appears to be real, isn't so real anymore.

I mean everywhere I look people, things, "reality shows." These things aren't so real anymore.

And the things that are real, the things that are fact, they are trying to twist into something else.

I see people and they seem so genuine, but then when you get to know them. It was all a show. Everybody knows people like that. People who are so different, like everything about them when they're around certain people.

Maybe they don't know who they are. Maybe they are pretending. maybe there's another reason. Who knows.

It just makes me so sad. Some people spend their whole lives trying to be something they're not, or pretending and they never figure out who they are or the person they want to be.

I think everyone at some point in their life has tried to be someone they're not because of something or someone. 

But more and more i'm seeing that God just wants us. Right where we are the way we are.

Jesus was always real. He was never putting on a show, never trying to impress anyone. He was just real with them. I love that! You never had to wonder if he was being a different person with different people or if he was lying to you. You never had to worry about any of that. cause when you got Jesus, you got him.

Real. The Bible is real. the whole thing. But people and things are slowly twisted into what people want them to be.  

Does the Word of God offend you? does it make you feel bad or upset you? Then why don't we change it into what we want to be real? It's doesn't work that way.  

Man, the world is so twisted. and it's twisting people's minds. People that don't know better are getting fed these things. People I care about, are getting fed twisted versions of the truth and that makes me angry. In fact I think that's crap. 

People dont' want the truth, so they make it up as they go along. People don't want reality. 

But I want the truth. and I want the people I care about to know the truth.

 So, I know I probably rambled, lol. but hey, jesus did too.   

 Welp, i'm outtie folks. have a happy day!

Catholic Church no longer swears by truth of the Bible

 http://www.timesonline.co.uk/article/0,,13509-1811332,00.html

Let's see, me and mellissa went to mac. park, i think it was like tues. anyway, it was rainy but it's was nice though. I enjoyed myself.

However, I decided to go down the slides and the big twisty one was all wet. I was okay with that but I didn't think about the whole, when it's wetter you go faster down it thing. But yeah.. you do.

I started screaming and i flew off the end. I was expecting to stop at the bottom, but no, I flew off into the sand. I'm sure it was very funny, but it scared me. But after I got over the shock it was fun. Yep yep.

So, I went for a walk today after school. For like 2 hours or so. I almost jumped into the pond. I thought about it and went to the edge, but i dont' know if there are snakes or whatever in there. And I have a huge fear of snakes swimming up my shorts, i dunno why. So I decided against that whole idea.

I might go play basketball in a lil bit, but i wanna take a shower first. Cause I don't like feeling stinky.

Anyway, next week is my last week of school. Next thursday to be exact.

I think i'm gonna join something this summer or something. Like a sport or something or start taking a dance class or something. I'm not sure yet though.

Welp, i'm gonna go shower and such. Bye now.

The important thing is not to be bitter over lifes difficulties. Learn to let go of the past and recognize that everyday won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in darkness and despair, remember, its only in the black of night, that you can see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. so dont be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble, to fall, because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing thigns that scare you the most. Maybe you wont get everything you wish for.. or maybe you'll get more than you ever couldve imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long, and in the end… the journey is the destination.

 I was just thinking, about how people spend so much of their lives waiting. We wait to graduate, get our degree, marriage. In our weeks we wait for what we have to do next. I feel like i'm always waiting. (Not that those moments aren't wonderful)
I spend so much time missing the journey. What if it's the moments that aren't so huge that are the significant ones. The moment you stopped and took time for someone even when you didn't really have the time. Or when you did some stupid activity because it meant something to someone you care about.

I was just thinking about moments that are significant to me. Like really significant. Moments I didn't always cherish when I was there. The moments that helped shape me. 

It wasn't graduation, or The day i got accepted into something. It was the talks I had while setting up. Or the first time in 20 years when I felt like my cousin really stood up for me, over something even though it was little. It was the moments sitting in a car and just talking. emails, letters, games, movies. delivering bulletins. practices.
It's just funny, ya know. I was just reading that quote and it got me thinking. The significant moments don't always seem so significant when they're happening. Sometimes they're with family, friends, alone. Moments of clarity, epiphanies. words from others. They can be in a car, jubilee hall, michigan, in a golf cart, on a 4-wheeler, in a camper, on a blanket watching the stars at night, around a campfire, when riding on a bus home from a youth group function, lying in bed at night, when you hear a song and realize something.

I wanna learn to love the little things.  

Well, I was just thinkin about it and thought i'd post it. But now i'm going to bed.

H&C, <3 always, Tiffany 

Yesterday matt, ashley, and myself went to my uncle jim's to go 4-wheeling. It was so much fun! It's like off roading there. It's like a forest with little trails through it.

 I thought i was gonna die like 10 times, but yay, i didn't. We plyaed hide and go seek on them and everything and me & ashley both did good. Matt… not so much. lol.

I found out what my problem is though with things like that. Cause when I get comfortable, i start being a little risky.  I go a lot faster and lots of stuff. So I tried to be better.

I followed ashley my first time through though and there's this huge STEEP hill and she made me go down it. and hello, how do we get back up? going up the huge steep hill. I stopped and told her to ride it up, but she was like no, it's easier when you're going up. So I did it.

It was so scary though, but kinda cool once i was back to safety. Now my arms are burning cause my triceps got a great workout which is super awesome.

It was so amazing though, matt even rode on the back of mine for a while, since he got tired on being on the little kid one and i was the safest driver between me and ashley.

I had such a good time! yay. 

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So, I just got done riding the golf cart with my mom and royally freaking her out. then i accidentally injured her, but then i made her feel better.
I'm getting ready to go to my uncle jim's with Matt & Ashley to ride four wheelers. Last time I rode a four wheeler it didn't end up so good for me, so hopefully i don't like kill myself. lol.

Well, i'm gonna get going. Oh yea, email me alicia's email address please.

Alrighty then, bye now. Much Love.

Tonight was the most fun i’ve had in a while. I didn’t realize it, but I think i’ve needed a night like tonight. The hub was good. I still can’t believe I got water dumped on me and I so would’ve won if jesse hadn’t taken the water.

Then I dumped mountain dew all over myself. yep, i did. lol.

After the hub I went with jesse and we saw melissa walking and picked her up and the three of us and Jesse’s mom went to kokomo. It was a blast.

Jesse’s mom is straight up awesome! She is so amazing! The whole time we were like cracking up. I love pam, she’s like the coolest. she’s totally tied with my mom for coolest. We went to meyers, which hello, is so cool. They have big pillows!!! I know! and Jesse’s mom bought me one, i didn’t know she did until later, but she did and it was very nice of her.

Then we went to walmart and walked around there for a while. Oh yea. Meyers has awesome furniture too. (just thought i’d let everyone know) Anyhoo, A couple times at walmart I had to pretty much take jesse down. Then Pam bought me a candy bowl. Yea, she’s like trying to spoil me. I tried to tell her not to, but my goodness, seriously i couldn’t.

I had so much fun. It was nice and I think everybody else had a good time too.

Well, i’m not sure what else to say, lol. So, I think I might go watch some high school musical before bed.

Goodnight all. Love always, Tiffany

 Thank you

Intimacy, Worship, God, and the Orgasm

NOTE: Written from Christian perspective… Please have an open and analytical mind. 

            I think, we as humans are naturally wired for intimacy.  In our American culture it seems the word intimate is commonly linked with sex.  To be intimate with someone (or something) is to be sexually involved.  This ideology along with many other worldly views of things creeps their way into the “Christian” culture.  What I mean is that thousands and millions of people who try to follow Christ are actively involved in premarital sex or extramarital sex.  And I’m going to ask the question, why?  Rather than take the “Sunday School” answers just Christians giving into temptation, I want to try to get to the root of this issue.

            Let’s get this straight…. I believe with all of my heart, intimacy is a gift from God for us to have with him, in this world and in the next.    So with that being said…

Have you ever been intimate with God?  I think it’s very possible to slip through the cracks of “Christendom” without having an experiential intimate moment with God, but many Christ followers have had this.

            Without going into much detail, let’s just simply define worship to God; it is a lifestyle choice of giving adoration to God, accepting His word as truth, and living a life for Him. Of course, worship takes many different forms; prayer, singing prayers (songs/hymns), reading and applying scripture, communion, etc.   I believe that worship in its action and lifestyle is the key to intimacy with God.    

            You know that moment when you just feel like the whole world around you doesn’t exist and it’s just you and God?  That out-of-this-world feeling of pure attention and worship to our creator and King Jesus.  Where you can just close your eyes and lift your hands up to Jesus and not have a care in this world what people think.  Where you can fall to your knees (possibly at an “alter”) in absolute surrender to God. Maybe you get goosebumps.  Whatever it is, it’s awesome and truly amazing.   As a side rant — Many people in our modern American church take this experiential and euphoric time of worship and use that to define what worship is.  To take it even further, many describe it as the Holy Spirit “moving” or “ascending on this place”.  And for the worst, many believe that if this euphoric state of worship is not happening, then it’s not true worship.  But I must digress, most followers of Christ have had an experiential form of worship  least once in their life. 

            People want to feel intimate… It’s harder to be intimate with God and in a completely devoted and euphoric form of worship with God because it requires absolute surrender of yourself and your grip on the world around you.   So that’s why many people turn to premarital and extramarital sex!  No silly, not because of God, but because giving into the pleasures and intimacy of the “world” is much easier than fully devoting to God.  It’s much easier to experience intimacy sexually because you are still in control, or at least you perceive yourself as in control.  When, in reality, the power of sin and The Great Evil Bastard (satan) has power in your life.   Giving into sexual temptation is not only satisfying to physical urges, it also partially satisfies the hunger for intimacy.  It’s a quick and easy way to be intimate. 

            But what about sex within marriage? Am I saying sex is a bad form of intimacy?  No, I’m not.  Even when the intimacy of sex that is great and holy within the bounds of marriage I presume that it doesn’t even compare to the greatness of true intimacy with Christ.   Even the most pleasurable of sexual experiences, the most amazing orgasm(s), the most intense time of eroticism, the most amazing time of cuddling, the most passionate kiss, will never, and I do mean never, BE AS AMAZING AS COMPLETE INTIMACY WITH GOD.

            So, I say let’s try to be more in surrender and devoted to Christ.  Let’s disconnect intimacy with sex and connect it more with a life of worship to God.  Then we can experience the intimacy of sex with a marriage that has God at the head of it.